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SUKI AKIN

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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

For Once , I've Never Felt That Yan's Really Loving Me Or Caring For Me Mentally Or Physically.Yan Just Got Out From Hospital This Morning. He Met With An Accident . Working As Riders Is A Nightmare Girls ~ Be Ready To Face All This . So , Why Didn't You Told Me That You've Gone Out From Hospital When You Knew I Really Wanted To Meet You.You Were So Near To Me Today.Yan,I Really Don't Want To Ask You Out On Saturday Nite After Abah's Bday Dinner At Ochard Hotel On Scotts. I Wanna Spend My Time With You.Hearing You Breathing Beside Me,Hugging You On Your Bike,Crying Infront Of You Coz I'm Darnly Missing You.I Know You Got My Msg Yesterday ;

Kila : I Miss You Dearest.Pls Get Well Soon,.I Feel Like Coming There Now.(Time Check;11.05)

Yan : No, Tkper,I Don't Need You.My Friends Are Here With Me.Bsok You Skola,Nanti Susah Nk Bgn.I'll Rest Kae.GdNite,Sweet Dreams.

What Did He Meant " I Don't Need You?"

Is That True?AFter Alot & Damn Alot Of Patience I Came Through,You Did Not Even Once Said,I Miss You Too.Why Must You Run The Fact That I Love You , & I Know You Don't Us .But,What If One Day,I'm Gone.Far From You.Would You See My Face For The Last Time?Would You Be There To Read Yasin For Me?

Would You Hold Your Tears Seeing Me Covered In White Cloth?

Would You Attend My Funeral?

Would You Visit Me Every 3 Months?

Would You Yan?

Would You?

Would You Wish Me Happy Bday Through A Msg.A Damn Short Msg.Don't Worry.Coz That Was All I Got From My Other Lovers.& I Tabah & Face It Alone.I'm Rotting Inside.I Hate School.I Hate The Fact The People In My School Is Like Assholes.Think They Look Cool & Step Tk Hot(Dlm Hati,Eh Thanks Eh,Memang Aku Hot) Pfft ~ Pls..Kila Da Lama Knal-Knal Org Mcm Gini.One Word Fer Them.Two-Faced Bitch*

Okeh,I Tk Nk Tambah Dosa..I'm Having Alots Of Painful Times That I Hadnt Had Time To Eat At Home.Crying & Crying.Tissues & Tissues.Damn It ! Stop It Pls Syakilla!Airmata Darah Titis Pon,Yan Won't Understand.I Tried Goin Out With Other Guys,Stil,I Want Yan.Yes,Aku Nk Tu Duda . He's One Hell Special To Me. Sometimes I Just Wanna Run Away.Far.Like Going Another Country Wud Be Nice.But Hey,The Limit You Come Back,The Probs R Still There Hanging Around Your Neck.Now,The 7 o clock Chinese Show Pon,Aku Tk Ikot.Until My Dad Said;

"Kau Tgok Tv Ker Tv Tgok Kau ??"

I Wish I Cud Answer Your Ques Abah,But Hey,Watever It Is,HAPPY ADVANCE BDAY DADDY ! Yg Ker Brape?Hmm~ 47 Eh ! oKeh..Beli Number. 1947 ? Amcm?Okeh?Kalau Strike , Half-Half Eh Bah ? ;) Well , Dad's Getting Older. I Love My Family Though They're Pain In My Ass.But,When's My Life's Tumbling, They Are There Making Me Laugh At Their Stupido Jokes.Hahah~Thanks Guys.If One Day Kila Left You Guys,I Wanna Tell You Guys That I Love You & I Will Not Forget You Guys.The Pillar Of My Strength & Life.Through Thick & Thin We've Been Togeder. Amin..Thank You God.Panjang Kan lah Umur Abah Ku & Murahkan lah Rezekinya Slama Ni ..Amin (Again..)I Guess I've Spilled Evrything Out For Today.I'll Update More Kae.Keep Reading & Tkmu Luper Leave A Tag Before Leaving Kae.Love You . Mwahhhhhhhhhhhh!

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